Dear Girlfie

Dear Girlfie,

Wow! Can you imagine we’ve been together for 16 months now? I know I always say this but it feels like yesterday was the first time I held your hand. Seems like time is passing by so fast. I miss the times when I was courting you and you try to hide your “kilig” when I touch your face. I know you don’t like hearing this because you think it’s a lie, but baby you are so different. I’m sure you always hear this line from the romantic movies you watch, but I swear, it’s true. The crazy feeling you give me when I see you walking towards me in that cute white shirt and ripped jeans of yours paired with your favorite sneakers. I love your simplicity baby. Remember the time when we planned our future house together? You wanted to put up a small prayer room because you’re so religious while I want to put up a basketball court because you know how I love playing. You want a garden full of roses while I want a garage full of Lamborghini. So silly of us to think about that when we aren’t sure of what we wanna be in the future. You said you wanted to be Pediatrician because you love kids, then you suddenly switched to being a Flight Stewardess to travel. And just two months ago, you wanted to be an inventor because you love discovering new things. You don’t want me to be an engineer because you think I’d have less time with you in the future. What you want me to become is a chef because you love how I make your favorite Chicken Curry and you believe that I could perfect making Afritada. You remember those times baby? We’re so full of ambition. But my favorite part of our relationship so far is when I kissed you. I know it was an accident and we were so surprised that our lips touched for the first time. When I demanded for another one, you said to wait ‘till the wedding. Ugh my girlfriend is so cute. Whenever I stare at your beautiful black eyes, it feels like time is frozen. I really, really love you baby.

How I wish the house that we planned could be built soon. And that I could finally perfect my Afritada for you. And I’m so excited to finally kiss your lips. I wish these dreams could happen now. I want you baby but why leave me so early? If I didn’t let you go to the mall alone, you wouldn’t be hit by that reckless van and you would still be by my side. A month had passed, but I still feel guilty and responsible for your loss. Why did you stop fighting? Now I couldn’t stare at those perfect eyes anymore. I couldn’t feel the warmth of your hug. I wouldn’t be able to see you walking down the aisle in your white lacy gown wearing your favorite sneakers on our wedding day. I couldn’t taste your lips anymore. No more house with a prayer room and a garden full of flowers. No more you. Why baby? How many nights does it take to count the stars, that’s the time it would take to fix my heart. Maybe a month. Maybe a year. Maybe a decade. Maybe forever.

I love you baby. Always and forever will be.

Missing you every day,

Boyfie.